Hi Folks,
I am not sure if this is the right forum to post this.But please do let me know you thoughts
I am a developer working in India..Nothing great about me,but I am just getting paid a little more( may be 30%) than a average developer of my experience and I believe I am pretty good in my job,but nothing extraordinary to boast about myself..
I think I could have achieved a lot in my life,but I made some serious mistakes in my life and I am now regretting for my mistakes.To be frank I was technically a virgin, but I wasted a lot of my sexual energy in self-indulgence and I can relate to the damages due to it from my own personal experience.
Till 10th grade I was a little better than some of my other class-mates..I started involving in self indulgence a lot from 7th grade..The guys I am trying to compare are very disciplined guys and they never tried self indulgence at least as far as I know,but I believe they had the same IQ level that I had
The results was evident after 12 th grade many of the guys whom I thought were my IQ level cracked IIT and joined good colleges like IIT,Bits-Pilani etc.But I joined a very normal engineering college,because most of my precious time I had wasted in unwanted thoughts and indulging in the bad habit.Further from there on,they joined good colleges like Stanford,Mit,Purdue,Cornell etc.. for their Mba or MS/Phd are now doing very well in their professional life...They are now reputed researchers or leaders in their own field..But I continued my bad habit and I am now just an ordinary team-lead.
Though whatever I posted may sound absurd or stupid to many of you,this really bothers me..Can atleast 1 of you relate to me.?..Now When I got the opportunityto get back in touch with some of them I can understand the difference between my career and their career...They have developed exceptional communication skills and their thought process is more intense,mature and complex and they have filed patents,started companies or have achieved something great and have made a mark in their field...My achievements are zero when I were to benchmark myself against them
I am now 29 years old and I atleast now I want to regain my lost vitality and achieve a sharper IQ and I want to improve my thought process and my intellect..What do you think I should do
I heard great scholars and intellects like Isaac Newton,Thomas Alwa Edison,Maths genius Ramanujam,Swami Vivekanda etc.. achieved greatness in life because they did not waste their vital energy..I was also browsing some web pages related to this and found some people agreeing with it..
http://bsk.ashram.org/NewSite/Brahmacharya.aspx
I am not sure how much of truth is in it..But when I compare my friends achievements with my achievements I believe there is some truth in it..I atleast now want to mend my wrong course and go in the right way and try to achieve greatness like my friends..But I am not sure if it too late..
Please don't laugh at my post,but do give me some suggestions on how to change my life..Thanks everyone for reading this..